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14th October 2010

2010-10-14T18:29:00.002+08:00

Hmm. It's been a long time since I blogged. Before this I had twitter and facebook so I can't balance all this at a time when twitter itself is like a blog but you just put random stuff every time. Unlike blog where you make damn long essays. Lol.

Today is the first day of me being single. Yes, as you guys can read the posts before this, that's like 10 months ago? Lol. So yeah. Now I'm living life as a single guy. Hmm...surely you are all thinking what happened between me and her. Here we go.

Where do I start. Okay I'll just briefly tell. I'll try to be as detailed as possible. I remembered during ramadhan, we were not so close because we didn't wanna meet as we were afraid that we might break fast earlier. If you guys know what I mean. So there were a lot of misunderstanding between us as we don't meet that often and we tend to be moody towards each other. Raya came and I met her on the 3rd day of raya. It's her birthday. Met her at 12 plus midnight. It was sweet. Okay whatever.

Fast forward to last week when she said that we should go on separate ways because she thinks that it's better for us. I kept on declining. So then it remains hanging there. Till yesterday, which is 13th October, it's our official break up date. What happened yesterday was I wanted to meet her for so many times but she said that she's busy and stuff. So yesterday I tried my luck after we contacted each other in a proper manner at last. So I met her after both of us finished school. We talked and had ice cream together. So I walked her home and saw cats around her area. So we played with cats and all. After exhausting out energy with cats, we sat down as I don't feel that well. Then we talked about us.

This is where the end began. We talked happily. I did not expect anything to happen you see. Suddenly she asked me. "So, have you thought about what I said earlier?". I replied "What?". "About us" she answered. From that moment, we talked and talked. I tried to win her heart back at that moment. After one hour, I was already crying and she keeps saying that she made up her mind. Also said that she thought about this long ago. After crying and crying like a stupid bastard, I decided to end the conversation and wanna head home. I asked her whether I can give her a last kiss and a hug. So I did. She wanted to walk me to the bustop but I didn't let her. Walked to the bustop while tearing like a piece of shit. I couldn't wait for the bus to arrive as I'm too sad and shallowed. I decided to take a cab in the last minute. While waiting for a cab, she came behind me and asked me to stop crying. Trying to calm me down and stuff. I touched her head and a taxi was in sight. I didn't look at her and raised for the cab. Cab came and I kissed her forehead and went it. Straight home.

Don't blame her for leaving me. It does seem bad for her to do this. Of course, I did a lot of things which makes her wanna leave me. Things like I deleted notifications on Facebook after girls adding me. And she noticed that. Also, I deleted mushy comments given by my girl friends and she also noticed that. She also claims that I did not treat her as wonderful as I did the last time. Hmm. I don't know. The funny thing is, she said that she still loves me. She just wanted to try this out. But deep down, I know it's not just a try out. It's permanent. I'll post more when I come home. Going out for a while.

Nabil out...

7th September 2009

2009-09-07T08:43:00.002+08:00

Good Morning world! Hehehe! I'm so happy now because I'm chatting with Berok<3 on the phone! Hahaha! She slept early again yesterday! And left me alone the whole night:( The whole night, I was playing FM like nobody's business! Hahaha! Okay nevermind. By the way yesterday was damn boring. Last last night, I slept at 7am? Ya! Then woke up at 4pm yesterday! OMG! Hahaha! Berok<3 smsed me a lot when I was sleeping. Sorry Baby :( hahaha! I helped mum make kuih! Hehehe! Nothing much but well, it's life. I'm missing Berok<3 a lot :( Guess what! I'm meeting her tomorrow! Woohoo! Hahaha! Everyone, don't forget to wish Berok<3 on her birthday on satuday! I can't meet her on her birthday itself:( very very sad...by the way some of you might be thinking, how can I wish her if I don't even know who she is? HAHAHA! Nevermind. You can wish her through my tagboard or SMS her yourself. IF you know her. :P

I think I'll post untill here. Since I'm sprouting out random nonsense. HAHAHA! Okay then, to all the muslims, Selamat Berpuasa! Hehehe! Okay byeee!

Nabil out...

5th September 2009

2009-09-05T01:46:00.002+08:00

Hi! This is the normal impression I will give to my two irritating friends which is Bear and Fez. HAHAHA! They will simply get irritated and will scold me in different languages. Damn! Hahaha! by the way today, I didnt go for Friday prayers because I overslept :S I had work later in the afternoon. Before going to work I made my own tuna sandwich because I break fast at work also. :( So poor thing. Then Berok<3 alerted me when we can break our fast :) I love you Berok<3! HAHAHA! Today was very busy as we had shortage of man power. Then me and Jing Hui had to do a lot. Stressed! But Baby slept halfway during my working hours. :(

So I went home feeling alone and with my music which irritates me sometimes. Hahaha! These past few days, I did not wake up for Sahur. I don't know why. I'm too sleepy I guess. Well, I hope I'll wake up later. :) Till then, I'll stop here! I miss you Berok<3!

Nabil out...

2nd September 2009

2009-09-03T02:33:00.000+08:00

HIIIII! Hahaha! Okay first things first. Happy Birthday Emely(Momo)! hahahaha! Hope you enjoy your birthday:) I know I sound happy after so long. Today was amazing. Seriously amazing. Well today I went out and met Berok. Hahaha! She was upset when I met her. She lost something which was supposed to be given to me. I'm sorry Berok. :(. Then she suggested that we go to civic centre because she wanted to go toilet. Hahaha! So we went there and went blank after toilet. She skipped her test to meet me and we were out of ideas on where to go. Suddenly I remembered that I have to collect my LG phone which was on service. The service center is at VIVO. -.-" I know its damn far. But what to do. So I gave the idea to her and she agreed. So we went back to my house and took the warranty card and the collection slip.

Then we went to VIVO from Admiralty station and proceeded. We reached and went straight to the center. While waiting Berok was admiring this phone. I looked at it in awe as the phone was partially transparent:O. Cool! Then after that we ate at Burger King :P Then we went to the back of VIVO after window shopping. Berok was shocked and amazed by the scenery and the water. Hahahahaha! So cute okay! Then she was pointing towards Sentosa. After talking about it, she gave me a good idea. I then ask her if she wanted to go there. She was petrified. Like as if she won 1 million dollars. HAHHAHA! Berok was excited! She couldn't believe what I just said. So we went to the skyline train and proceeded to Sentosa! Hehehe! We went to Siloso beach and witnessed the sunset. We spent 1 1/2 hr of beautiful, romantic, wonderful and sweet time. I gazed into her eyes a couple of times and was so in love with her :) We were so crazy. HHAHAHA! Then we started making stories when we looked at the stars. So damn sweet. The cutest part was, we were heading home, so she wanted to go toilet and wash her legs before putting on her shoes once again. So she went to the toilet and washed her leg. She came out and gave me this face -.-. HAHAHA! Because her leg was 'sanded' once again. Hahaha! There is a place for washing legs beside me there. I was sitting beside a fountain in front of the toilet. Before washing her leg for the second time, she was thinking how to prevent sand from getting to her leg. Because if she were to walk with wet feet, there will surely be sand. So I came to her rescue! hahahahahah! This is damn sweet. I carried her from the place to the seat where her shoe was. ^^

After that we headed home. I sent her home and was so happy about today. Berok was so tired that she slept without saying goodnight! hahahaha! The short trip was so random and unplanned! It turned out to be a beautiful meeting:) I'm so in love with berok! ahhaha! Okay until here. Find out more about us in the upcoming posts:D Goodnight all! I love you Berok! <3

Nabil out...

7th August

2009-08-07T20:33:00.000+08:00

HI!
Guess what! Yesterday was my birthday! It was a different birthday ever! Firstly, someone was the first to wish me through webcam! I was very happy. Then in class, I was forced to make a birthday speech in front of the class. I was so nervous . The facilitator was kind enough to let us go early as we had to catch a very early dinner and a late lunch at Seoul Garden. We had to reach there at 4 as that is the time the student price end. So we went there and was really hungry. 13 of us there, we ate like 130 people. Hahaha! Omg I love my classmates. While eating, suddenly they went silent and sang a birthday song for me when the staff of seoul garden brought a cake from swensens to my table. I was damn nervous and speechless. After that I cut the cake and we ate happily. We took a lot pictures and were very noisy. Then after that I met up with Nadt and her boyfriend. She gave me a small cake and a spectacular card. Thanks Nadt! Then after that I met up with Afiq, Roz, Ash, Aisyah and Diana. We chatted like crazy and in the end, I got sick. Untill now, I'm not able to breathe properly! Although I was enjoying myself yesterday, I am still dissapointed and sad due to several reasons. It's okay. Mum and dad gave me 2 Ralph Lauren shirts, cash and this emotional self written card by mummy. Thanks mum and dad! I love u! Last but not least, I just want to thank W14L and all who wished me through every mode. I appreciate you all! I'm 18! Nabil out!

2nd August 2009

2009-08-02T01:09:00.003+08:00

Hi. I'm sorry. I have not been updating my blog. I know if I were to update my blog, I will be super emotional. Like now. Not "emoing" on Kirin. But my family. I'm just very angry with them. Especially with my mum and dad. Not to mention my brother. Sister is okay so far. Come on, can't life just give me a break? Especially this year? Ever since my last post, a lot happened during this period. I really need a break. Maybe some time with the only person I trust. Which is my best pal. No names being mentioned here. I'm just going to be frank with all of you, I'm still not over with Kirin. Not even a little bit. If you feel that this post is crap, let me give you a suggestion. Press the exit button and shut up. Today is my family's part. What the fcuk? Is 2009 a bloody hell year for me? Or is it just the beginning? Or the end already? Anyone? Fasting month is at the end of this month. Should I be looking forward to this? Because after 2 years I'm doing it alone once again. Okay forget it. I'm going to do whatever I like tomorrow. Stop me if you can. Nabil out.

2009-07-12T23:37:00.003+08:00

I swear to god I really have no idea about my mind anymore. I'm really not in a right sate of mind. I'm afraid. When is the road going to lead me to a smooth path? I want to forget every single thing that happened in my life. As in, everything. Really. I swear, I think I'm having migraine. I'm not joking about this. You all know, today I had my third black out. As in, real one. I was walking to admiralty just now. Then, I felt giddy. So I sat down and rested. Then while listening to noisy songs, I felt nothing and fainted. Cool okay. Serious. When I woke up, it was barely 4 minutes -.- Okay drop the topic. I went to work today. Today is officially the second day of work for me and it was alright. Zul is with me, so I have a friend to go with. Cool okay. I've been feeling to tired and having an ocean in my head. Heavy. Okay I think I'm going to end my post here. Before that, I want to recommend all of you to one song. The song is, Already Gone by Kelly Clarkson. Wonderful song. Okay, until here. Nabil out.

2009-07-10T15:14:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I will think, what am I thinking of everyday? Is it the same thought that I had a month back? Or is it the first month after the incident happened? I'm getting more confused and having bad headaches every now and then. It's kind of weird how life is being carried out everyday and every moment by specific individuals. What I am trying to say is, okay I will tell you. I am not going to lie here. I am still heartbroken and find it very difficult to carry this burden which is topped by another burden. You see what I mean? If you are very close to me, you would understand what am I trying to say here. I'm not going to say it. For some reasons. Another is, I kept wondering about how can a couple be one in a short period of time? This is the big thing in my head. Yes, I know that I could have just gone straight to the point from the start. I don't care okay. Speaking of point, I'm having Cognitive Problem solving now and it is a little bit draggy. I'm having my science UT in a few minutes time and I know I am going down the drain. I did not even get a glance on the powerpoint slides. One more thing, I'll be working later and I think I am going to collapse after a few hours. I just don't feel right today. So much happened in a short period of time. So maybe that is all for today? Yes. See you all. Wish me luck. Nabil out.

2009-07-09T23:38:00.003+08:00

Hey. Today is quite funny and joyous. First thing is, I came to school early. I also did a lot during maths. I tell you all something. The cookies from Subway is orgasm okay. It is so delicious! For those who have not tried it, you should :) After school was quite different. I left Fesz and Bear walking without me because I wanted to have late lunch and early dinner at Pastamania. Sorry guys. I went with Murni, Patricia, Jo and Harvn. It was funny okay. We cracked a lot of jokes there. After that I accompanied Murni around Causeway Point while waiting for her boyfriend to pick her up. After that, I went home, bathed and knocked out. How am I? Well, different things has been happening to me. Sweet plus sour. I'm actually trying hard to live with it. As in, VERY hard. Oh. I forgot to mention. No work today! So I am enjoying my free time now. I will be working tomorrow. So that's all for today. I'm having my science test tomorrow. Wish me luck :) Nabil out.

2009-07-08T00:01:00.002+08:00

Hey. Today is not a good and normal day. I mean it went well and all but I'm really tired due to lack of sleep. By the way, these 2 days, including today i meant, I kept going to the block where I treasure my memories a lot. I told you before that there is something someone wrote that makes me cry a lot. So just now I went to the place again and stared at it for about 5 minutes or so. Smiling to myself and thinking about my secondary school life and happy moments. After saying all these, something happened today which slightly spoiled my mood at work and caused me to not concentrate that much. I kept thinking about why must I be in the picture whereas I do not have a clue about it. Never mind. I shall live with this kind of things. Maybe I have to be ready for this kind of stuffs in future. I told you guys. My luck changed after the separation. it is kind of weird actually. Hey, tomorrow I have a test going on. It is on cognitive and processes. OMG. I have not even started reading through. Maybe I'm going to do it now. Peace out. Nabil out.

2009-07-06T23:46:00.002+08:00

Hi. Today has been slightly different. A mixture of happy and tired. Morning, I went to school and well slacked a lot today. Then after school was kind of rushing. I had to go to my first day of work. Training actually. So I finished up my RJ in school and went of with Fesz and Bear to causeway point where they want to have their late launch at McDonalds. They were really hungry at that time. I was not so I sat down beside them while they ate like crazy. I was looking forward for another thing or should I say meeting. At last! I have music to accompany me everywhere I go! Thanks! :) So I met Zul at Toa Payoh and we went there together. Training was a little bit funny but very cold indeed. I cannot imgagine myself being in this situation for 6 days. After this it is the real thing. Which is next week. Descent job but boring. Bear with it. Okay I'm a little bit exhausted now and want to get some rest. Goodnight my angels. Nabil out.

2009-07-05T21:35:00.002+08:00

I thought it was getting better just the way I felt. Instead, I got it wrong and made it worst. It's just that I keep thinking positive and looked for beautiful things to happen to me. So now I saw the real angle. It is not that easy. This current problem I have may not be that big but it is in my heart. There's one thing. It is not easy. Well I really hope for it and a slim chance maybe?

Today has been a hectic day. My cousin Shafiq and Azhari got married. They are brothers and had their wedding on the same day side by side. So cute of them. I helped out abit and eased the situation by 0.5 percent. Well the wedding was a success and I hope they enjoyed their wedding.

Back to me. My heart is calmed now. By someone I trust. I hope for something better and I know it will. I will update more when I know more. So that's it for today. Nabil out.

3rd July 2009 Later part of the day...

2009-07-04T01:06:00.003+08:00

No, says Rain to Megan Fox. Okay the guys who finds her hot and beautiful will be crazy to hear this from Rain. I think I know why. Isn't it supposed to be the other way round? I mean, guys going for girls? And this is the opposite way round. So I think rain got a point there. Fox is just being too flirtatious. Rain is way cool. Well he has his reasons. By the way I played soccer just now or was it witnessing teens playing soccer? I wonder. I was on the way back home with Alif and we discussed something which made me look back to the past. Which also made me think of US(ed). I'm just glad for you Alif :) Okay so the news of Owen is spreading like swine flu. It's odd for Fergie to make that decision but its worth it:) Okay I have one more quite sad story to tell you all.

I love sambal sardine. Mum cooked it yesterday. Unfortunately, she accidentally burnt the dish by overheating it. So I had to eat my favourite dish with burnt taste :S Well, I had other options but I chose to eat those. It's my favourite what can I say. That is all for today and I am going to play for Fesz's team tomorrow, Love United. I'm quite excited actually and nervous at the same time. Wish me luck guys! :) Stay tuned. Nabil out.

3rd June 2009

2009-07-03T13:14:00.004+08:00

Hey. So sorry yesterday never update. Yesterday was a hell of a day. Actually not so. Because in the morning, I went to school. Around 11, I felt unwell and decided to go home. So walked to causeway point slowly and took 962. After reaching home, mum was shocked that I was back way early than expected. So watched CD at home and slept. Then watched soccer video the whole night and was inspired by Nike Mercurial Superfly! Omg. I'm so gonna buy that boot! :D. So today, I went to school early, because I took a cab to school. When I was about to press the lift, Fesz called me and told me he do not have a thermometer and was not granted access to the school compound. So met him and we waited for Alif. Then we planned and went to Alif's house. Skipped school! So now, currently at Alif's, watching tv and ate McDonald's! Three of us ordered McSpicy and ate like never before. Wow. Now, I'm very sleepy and bored. So I think I'll just update until here. By the way, congrats to Alif and Ain. Go long guys:)

1st July 2009

2009-07-01T22:03:00.002+08:00

Hi! Yes I know I've updated earlier but this is the latest one! HAHAHA! Well, I just wanted to highlight on what have I been doing for today. Hmm, nothing much but something worth doing. Guess what? I watched Transformers 2 again! For the second time! HAHAHA! I'm not psycho okay. My pal Alif watched it the third time within a week. Now thats psychotic. Me, Fez, Bear and Alif went to causeway point and witnessed the best show in the world. We watched the 5 o'clock show and truly enough, we enjoyed it like nobodies business. HAHAHA. I mean, its a show which simply amazed everyone with the super high graphics. Megan Fox is wonderful! YES! HAHAHA! Its not only her, but the whole show. After the show we sat around for about an hour and headed back home. I told you that Naufal is sick right? Now Mummy and Najah is sick! OMG! I really pity them. They just came back from the doctor and I hope they recover real soon. Well currently, I have nothing to do and I am not excited for school tomorrow. There is no excitement at all! Especially the part where our break times will be reduced by a lot! I'm totally not happy with this. It's so unfair! Okay I'm done blogging here. I guess this is it for today! I hope tomorrow will be a great day with something new to discover! HAHAHA! As if I'm a Archeologist or something. Okay! I'm done! Ah! I forgot. I miss someone very dearly :( HAHAHA! Okay then. Nabil out!

1st July 2009

2009-07-01T03:18:00.002+08:00

Eh! I noticed something which is quite amazing to me. I noticed that all my friends are having their partner! Even Kirin! HAHAHA! Well, my good pal Alif has a partner, Aisyah also have, Murni have, almost all! Isn't it wierd? I think it is. So it is only me! The loner. Hmm, I might have a good look at that name. HAHAHA! Well, its currently 3.22am and I'm still on the internet and blogging random stuffs. Actually, eversince our break up, I've been making lots of random thoughts. You guys see the linkage here? It means, I'm going crazy! HAHAHA! Nono. Joking2. I've never tried blog hopping until today. I find it quite fun. Reading peoples daily life. Quite interesting. By the way, Naufal's fever is still very high and i'm very worried for him. The good thing is, he rests a lot and i'm sure he will recover soon :) Speaking about partner, I took a quiz from Facebook, which will tell us when will we find our love. Mine is this on December this year. The moment I saw the date, I laughed and keep cursing the quiz. Why? Because it is a total bullshit! HAHAHA! My friend also took it and guess when his turn is? 4 years later. HAHAHAHAHA! Nonsense right?

Okay you guys know that i'm having an additional 1 week holiday right? The cause is, H1N1. So, during this 1 week, we are supposed to do our school work through e-Learning. Guess what? I've not done a single thing. HAHAHA! Lazy la! It is supposed to be group work! I don't care. I'm just using this 1 week to rest and recover from my sickness. Okay i'm starting to feel sleepy now. I guess i'll end this post right here? Yes. Okay then. Nabil out! :D

30th June 2009

2009-06-30T21:18:00.002+08:00

i was happy yesterday...and towards the end of yesterday...i became even more sad than before...i got my reasons...but very sad...:( im recovering phhysically but not mentally...kept thinking about her and what will happen to me...well..today is boring. seriously. my little brother is sick and have a very high fever..pity him...all i did at home was sleep and eat. hahaha! and now my head full of sorrows again...im off...bye!

29th June 2009

2009-06-29T22:58:00.003+08:00

hey..i stayed home for 3 days straight!!! omg! why? because im sick! eh really u noe. very weak. well im not having high fever currently. only the first and second day i got high fever. btw have u watched disturbia? its about this guy being house arrested for punching his teacher's face. his punishment given by the judge is, he has to stay at home for 3 months. omg! same like this! but my situation is worse. i sick! eh but tell u something. these 3 days rite, i sleep and sleep! hahahaha! heaven! andandand ive not been eating much and cannot think straight..i dunno y la! hahaha! nth much to say today..well im at home the whole day..hahaha! i think thats all for now..hehehe! wish me luck for my recovery! byyyee!

2009-06-26T23:56:00.002+08:00

hey2! kk juz now i go doctor..he say not h1n1. but its bullshit. i got ALL the symptoms..how eh? im realyl scared and feeling very weak u noe..haiya..juz hope to get better and live my life. hahaha. mummy brought me there..den its wierd la..but im not ready to be hospitalized..:/ k la tts all i wanna say..im very2 weak and tired..pray for me ya! :D

26th June 2009

2009-06-26T20:02:00.003+08:00

hii! u all know wad? to think of it, i really pity myself. serious. like soo...erm...pityful. hahaha! u all know what happened right...den now im really2 sick. as in seriously sick. alot of things happened leh since the bad incident! :( nevermind lor...i have to accept it:( kk btw yesterday i was okay. den today i slept at 6am. woke up at 12.30 pm. den vacuum the house and dressed up to go out. i was supposed to go watch Transformers woth my frens. so we went to buy the tickets. and u noe wad? the people there like never watch movie before! hahahaha! alot seh! too many! ee! den we wanted to watch the 5 oclock show. but i tell u. cannot make it. tickets were selling fast and we are way behind the line. shit. and i felt unwell. k tell u all something. wad are the symptoms of swine flu? cough, fever, runny nose, aching body and sorethroat. guess wad? i got them. all! as in all! i go home after queuing for nothing. i got home, my head was killing me. mum was worried sick and i bathed and straight went to bed. slept and had wierd dreams...well...juz now my temp was 38.5. now 37.0. soo its better la..but my cough and my aching body still there..maybe later i do doc ^^ so u all pray for me la eh! hehhee! im bored! k byeee! :)

2009-06-26T02:42:00.002+08:00

hey! omg! i juz came back from watching Trasformers with my fam! IT IS SOOOO GOOD! ahahha! i enjoyed it like crazy! really2 wonderful. i didnt expect it to be tt good la. hahaha! im gonna watch it agn tml! with my frens! wooohooo! hahaha! btw..there is a few parts which made me cry..the show shows some parts which made me cry during the show..remembering of something..its okay2! hehehe! btw about today..erm..ah! juz now me, afiq, fez and rafiq went cycling! hahaha! we all cycled all the way to sembawang park! hehehee! omg! tired like crazy! when we reached there we sat at the seats on the beach. hehehee! wow! den after tt we went to the coffee shop near the park and drank . hehehe! den we headed back home half-dead. hahahaha! its nice. we shud do this agn guys! with more ppl! hehehe! k la..im bored and fed up over the game typing maniac! hahaha! kk wanna cont wad im doing ^^ k byeee!

25th June 2009

2009-06-25T16:05:00.002+08:00

heyheyhey! its my one week holiday! hahaha! coz in sch got h1n1! furthermore the person who got infected is juz above my class:S den after that the school decided to give one week holiday. :) okay la...quite fun coz no need to wake up early...i wish someone can heal my heart asap...i cant possibly go on this way...i really sad ar...i noe its irritating ar...every post about my condition...but this is my blog...bear with it is u wanna read...sorry to everyone if i made any mistake to u...really...today i feel so down...my heart is not strong as before...damn it...

24 June 2009

2009-06-24T13:38:00.002+08:00

k im feeling so very insecure and disturbed. i found out this info from a source which i do not want to mention here. well, she was attached for almost a month now and she started the rshp a few days after we broke up. what does this mean? up to u all to imagine la k:) im just surprised and shocked. as in very shocked. so now i guess shes happily ever after with him? yea...well im happy for her because she found someone better than me. well...im still shocked by the news and i dunno wad to do now. serious. blank. :S just wish me luck for my life k? thanks! now stressing out with programming:( later ill update agn. bye.

23 June 2009

2009-06-23T13:05:00.004+08:00

My heart is hurting so much lately. Why? Really you know...wah...wahhh! pain! My life now is indeed very boring and filled with sadness. I just cannot immagine myself being in this state. Its like losing something very precious to someone else. Like my lamborghinni, being taken by a stranger. :S . But the thing is, she did not leave me for another guy. After we broke up, she came closer to her bestie and their feelings develop. It breaks my heart but I know the truth. I hope by reading this, you can understand more. I'm trying my very best to make my life lively once more. I find it almost impossible. Maybe its because all these years, im not alone but with someone who is always beside me and cares for me. What a total change of life! Eew...people say, fill your time with activities. What can I possibly do everyday after school? Sit with my friends then what? The 3 words that is always given to me is gone! The center word does not exist in my heart anymore. I've not been sleeping well these days and I find it hard to do it. I'll just pray for her and her life. For my own life, i'll just pray for myself. hehehe. The reason is I kept thinking about my problem and not focusing on my life. School is quite boring these days. I felt lazy and not motivated anymore. I have not been getting A's anymore! Argh...I don't know why. Well my birthday is drawing nearer and i'm only looking forward to it just because of my license^^. I'm not looking forward to celebrate it. :/ Now, doing my powerpoint and breaking my head. I could not do much. Even my friends were asking me why am I not to my usual standard. Sorry guys. Seriously. Im tring my best. So give me time to focus. Im hungry! Im very lazy to go down and buy food. I'm going off now. Catch you all later. :) Im out! Poff!

2009-06-22T17:27:00.002+08:00

k im back!! hahahaa! :) ncie onot my blog?? hahahaa!! since my life is very suck now, and it realli2 sucks, i mean really2222222 sucks! ahahaha! someone found someone new. soo erm..its okay la..nemind2..the previous blog holds alot of beautiful memories which can be read millions of times without getting bored! and its my treasure. but now i cant bear the pain anymore so i had to close it down...yes! another chapter of my life, closed! i mad this new blog so called like..new life la..lonely guy! hahaha! feel free to read my craps everyday and dun forget to link me up! heheehe! btw my sch has 2 confirmed cases of H1N1 and one of it is in my block. the class is riiiggghhht above my class! hahahaha! so hopefully i wont get it la..hehehe! btw today is as per normal..boring and all..i never eat the whole day lehh! hahaha! cool! puase or wad! yes! hahaha! im at home now staring at the screen and thinking of shits..eh actually ar..these days my head is empty..total blank u noe! i dunno y! like crazy. hahahaa! well...i hope u enjoy my blog and keep comming back for more! ehhehe!! tc guys...thanks for visiting! nabil rock onnn! k bye! poff!

2009-06-22T15:08:00.001+08:00