Today is the first day of me being single. Yes, as you guys can read the posts before this, that's like 10 months ago? Lol. So yeah. Now I'm living life as a single guy. Hmm...surely you are all thinking what happened between me and her. Here we go.

Where do I start. Okay I'll just briefly tell. I'll try to be as detailed as possible. I remembered during ramadhan, we were not so close because we didn't wanna meet as we were afraid that we might break fast earlier. If you guys know what I mean. So there were a lot of misunderstanding between us as we don't meet that often and we tend to be moody towards each other. Raya came and I met her on the 3rd day of raya. It's her birthday. Met her at 12 plus midnight. It was sweet. Okay whatever.

Fast forward to last week when she said that we should go on separate ways because she thinks that it's better for us. I kept on declining. So then it remains hanging there. Till yesterday, which is 13th October, it's our official break up date. What happened yesterday was I wanted to meet her for so many times but she said that she's busy and stuff. So yesterday I tried my luck after we contacted each other in a proper manner at last. So I met her after both of us finished school. We talked and had ice cream together. So I walked her home and saw cats around her area. So we played with cats and all. After exhausting out energy with cats, we sat down as I don't feel that well. Then we talked about us.

This is where the end began. We talked happily. I did not expect anything to happen you see. Suddenly she asked me. "So, have you thought about what I said earlier?". I replied "What?". "About us" she answered. From that moment, we talked and talked. I tried to win her heart back at that moment. After one hour, I was already crying and she keeps saying that she made up her mind. Also said that she thought about this long ago. After crying and crying like a stupid bastard, I decided to end the conversation and wanna head home. I asked her whether I can give her a last kiss and a hug. So I did. She wanted to walk me to the bustop but I didn't let her. Walked to the bustop while tearing like a piece of shit. I couldn't wait for the bus to arrive as I'm too sad and shallowed. I decided to take a cab in the last minute. While waiting for a cab, she came behind me and asked me to stop crying. Trying to calm me down and stuff. I touched her head and a taxi was in sight. I didn't look at her and raised for the cab. Cab came and I kissed her forehead and went it. Straight home.

Don't blame her for leaving me. It does seem bad for her to do this. Of course, I did a lot of things which makes her wanna leave me. Things like I deleted notifications on Facebook after girls adding me. And she noticed that. Also, I deleted mushy comments given by my girl friends and she also noticed that. She also claims that I did not treat her as wonderful as I did the last time. Hmm. I don't know. The funny thing is, she said that she still loves me. She just wanted to try this out. But deep down, I know it's not just a try out. It's permanent. I'll post more when I come home. Going out for a while.

Nabil out...